yikes

well tomorrow we play leland for preseason. hopefully we’ll have some wins. karen and i won our last preseason game against branham thanks to muling and kevin. (: hopefully their training will kick in when we play leland and westmont.

these next 3 weeks or so are gonna be hell week.
isn’t that fun? no. i need sleep. i can’t function properly

love is on its way

waiting for you is pointless now.
wishing everything would be the
way they were is pointless.
yet i can’t help it. alkdsjlkj;

remember?

“once you love something, there will always be a place in your heart for it.”
sigh..only one person can really understand how i feel right now and what i’m going through. he’s having a tough time also, worse than me actually. but we’re here for each other. he told me just to try to keep positive, things will get better soon, they’ll turn around evenutally.

this week was just..slkfjadlkljlfskdjf;lkjsfdfg

this picture makes me happy i dont know why. haha.

one of those blogs again.

yeah its one of these again..

lately i feel like i’m drifting from everyone. like even close friends too /: things aren’t just going right anymore. nothing has gotten better; just stays the same or gets worse.

but i’m trying to learn to be more positive about things. i shouldn’t be so down all the time. just enjoy everything and everyone around me.

im gonna pass out after this blog

i took the revolutionary prep thing today. i’m tired.
i feel like this weekend and next week are going to
be really bad. i can just feel it already.

im tired.
of everything

Hold on tight, it’s a rollercoaster ride

So today was..eh. Just like every other day. Afterschool my sister took me to VF and went to the new forever21/heritage and it is HUUUGE. But not a lot of cute stuff /: I was pretty bummed. The old Heritage used to be like hella cute and chill clothes but i guess the style right now is ..bohemian? hahah. I don’t know. -_- but it’s definately not cute. Forever’s store is weak right now maybe i’ll go back a little later haha.

I’m suppose to go to yogurtland and play badminton tomorrow, but i can’t. ): i have to go to my cousin’s birthday. i wanna play badminton soo bad though sighh. and tomorrow i have to take the practice SAT ughh. i’m gonna fail. again. /:

I guess i should go study..
maybe

cue the sun

this week isn’t starting off too well. everything is just going down down down. when can things be good again? /:

at least we made it this far

things will get better.
hopefully.

Thanksgiving 2008

This year has been really great. I’m so thankful for everything that I have; a family who is so caring and supportive and amazing friends who are always there for me. I feel that the majority of the time I’m a big selfish brat. Haha. I have this feelign that I give off a whiny and ungrateful attitude towards my family. If something goes wrong I take it out on everyone which isn’t fair at all and it’s absolutely unnecessary. And when I think about it I just feel like an awful person. This year has changed me a lot; good and bad. The bad part, I’m not quite as patient than I used to be and the good part is that I’m a little more out there I’m not as shy as i used to be but i’m still really quiet when I want to be haha.

Okay I’m sort of loosing track on what I was trying to say hahha. Starting about last year on Thanksgiving, I always think about how lucky I am. I have a nice home, parents who are caring that provide me clothes, transportation, food, and love and unnecessary electronics. /: haha. I mean there are a lot of people out in the world who aren’t as lucky as I am. And I always feel bad because I take these things for granted way too often. Like my parents are paying for my South America trip which by the way is a lot. And I don’t try hard enough, I’m like third to last stand -_-. It’s like i’m just wasting their money away. Also with my camera; if I got good grades I can have that nice camera. I got the camera and my grades were horrible. Every time I look at my camera I want to cry because my parents spoil me so much and I don’t deserve any of the things they give me. I don’t know I just hate feeling like that, it’s awful. But I am so so so thankful for everything and everyone in my life. asldkfjlksjfsajldkj

The Blue Roses

The past month has been so SDFKSLKFJdskfjlksjFSLfdj. Everything just sucks a lot. And I can’t do anything about it. My grades are absolutely horrifying. The grading period ends in a week and I’m pretty much screwed. And the standard time thing is throwing off my sleeping routine. I’m even more tired because i keep waking up so often. And it’s so cold ): but i love winter. It’s so pretty. I want to walk down on Mcabee and take pictures of the trees that are so pretty. Maybe I’ll go soon because the tree’s are going to be like..naked soon. Haha. Anyways, one good thing was I went shopping in gilroy yesterday and at valleyfair today and like..two weeks ago. haha I don’t think im shopping for awhile now. (: And I am so so so so so so excited for Twilight to come out. I’m almost done with Breaking Dawn. It’s so good. All them are good AH sjalkjfj;slj lovee.<3

sigh.